There is no grace for
the ill-equipped. The constancy of coming to speed, rolling off the hill by
just that little, the mad scramble of the spirit that refuses to die. There is
no stillness in this motion. Wouldn't be bearable - the fumble, the sensation, all
spikes and bounce - if it weren't so funny, in it's unnecessariness. The beauty
of balance hides in nooks and crannies, waiting to be discovered. Failure isn't
an option. Failure is a friend. I embrace you. Let's run together.
There has to be a place where I can stash things that I like, that I would like to keep or share. Without logic or reason, a flowing ream of collectibles, be it self-scribbles or works blatantly borrowed. Thoughts, verse, sights, sounds, each to be whimsically vibrant, eclectic, joyously effervescent, introspective, scathingly incisive, or deeply nostalgic, but always moving. This is to be it.
Saturday, July 13, 2019
Wednesday, July 3, 2019
Scatter
I came across an odd, sprawling smile that stayed with me. The memory of it keeps playing back in my mind like a flash clip when least expected. I would like to imagine that if I curled up under a grand tree, I would wake with answers that eluded me. It would have to be a gnarled tree, lichen covered, centipedes crawling to a symphony of crickets. The portal comes home. A hundred year wall I touch. Peel upon peel I discover notions that correct themselves. Every wave of water cleans the rocks a little. Silicates. Shine in the dark even when no one's looking.
Sunday, June 9, 2019
Four years
This page lay dead.
Words swirled, little by little, inside my head, each year.
This - foil to everything I actually wanted to write, lay locked.
The words had nowhere to go.
Mornings I woke in clouds of verse,
Comebacks, framed 3 days too late
Inner monologue all dressed in colour
Flew down a river that didn't exist.
You must write. Travelogues. Film Reviews.
You must write. Recipes. Food Reviews.
You must write. Form, structure, coherance.
Tripe.
Words I can have here -
Thoughts as they flow.
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Possibilities
I prefer movies.
I prefer cats.
I prefer the oaks along the Warta.
I prefer Dickens to Dostoyevsky.
I prefer myself liking people
to myself loving mankind.
I prefer keeping a needle and thread on hand, just in case.
I prefer the color green.
I prefer not to maintain
that reason is to blame for everything.
I prefer exceptions.
I prefer to leave early.
I prefer talking to doctors about something else.
I prefer the old fine-lined illustrations.
I prefer the absurdity of writing poems
to the absurdity of not writing poems.
I prefer, where love’s concerned, nonspecific anniversaries
that can be celebrated every day.
I prefer moralists
who promise me nothing.
I prefer cunning kindness to the over-trustful kind.
I prefer the earth in civvies.
I prefer conquered to conquering countries.
I prefer having some reservations.
I prefer the hell of chaos to the hell of order.
I prefer Grimms’ fairy tales to the newspapers’ front pages.
I prefer leaves without flowers to flowers without leaves.
I prefer dogs with uncropped tails.
I prefer light eyes, since mine are dark.
I prefer desk drawers.
I prefer many things that I haven’t mentioned here
to many things I’ve also left unsaid.
I prefer zeroes on the loose
to those lined up behind a cipher.
I prefer the time of insects to the time of stars.
I prefer to knock on wood.
I prefer not to ask how much longer and when.
I prefer keeping in mind even the possibility
that existence has its own reason for being.
Wislawa Szymborska
(July 2, 1923–February 1, 2012)
Sunday, February 22, 2015
With the hunted
Run.
Begin.
One foot after another.
No mind to it.
Chew gravel.
Feel the crunch.
Everything moving.
Houses. Trees. Cars. People.
No mind to it.
Pace up.
It's the wind, saying welcome.
I am here.
Feel it.
Its the blood on the stove.
Never simmered enough.
Its cooler now.
Its the air rushing through.
One foot after another.
Killing the mind.
Eat the road.
Its falling behind.
Oh the manic thudding.
Something is giving away.
Push it. Push it.
No mind to it. Pace up.
Its the burn. Cold fire.
One foot after another.
Oh brute will.
Its a wild blur.
Its flying.
The beckoning.
Answer.
The engine is failing.
Push it. Push it.
Unrelenting.
Take off.
One foot after another.
The plane changes.
This ground, this wind, this air
is holding you.
Look up.
The sky is all yours.
Penned Sunday, Feb 22, 2015
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
Reminder
"I want to get more comfortable being uncomfortable.
I want to get more confident being uncertain.
I don't want to shrink back just because something isn't easy.
I want to push back, and make more room
in the area between I can't and I can.
Maybe that spot is called I will."
I want to get more confident being uncertain.
I don't want to shrink back just because something isn't easy.
I want to push back, and make more room
in the area between I can't and I can.
Maybe that spot is called I will."
Saturday, January 24, 2015
Spring is here
Sell your cleverness and buy bewilderment.
Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world.
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.
Be like the sun for grace and mercy.
Be like the night to cover others' faults.
Be like running water for generosity.
Be like death for rage and anger.
Be like the Earth for modesty.
Be as you appear.
Within tears, find hidden laughter,
seek treasures amid ruins,
sincere one.
~ Jalaluddin Rumi ~
Sunday, April 27, 2014
The Explorer's Manifesto
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| The Bermuda Triangle |
Leave home
Disconnect, leave aside for a moment your history and your usual way of looking at things. When we aren't clinging to our own ideas and habits, we can learn about and gain greater enjoyment from everything again.
Enjoy the journey
Do not be obsessed with the final destination. Try to be open to the unpredictable, the unexpected and the accidental and to the things that happen along the way. Seize opportunities. Change your plans.
Pack light
Too much baggage weighs us down and slows us down. It is distracting and interferes with our relationship to our surroundings. Take what is appropriate. Do not make too much effort to protect yourself from every possible risk. It is almost always true that what you lose in comfort or security, you gain in freedom.
Go far
Extraordinary things happen at the limits of possibility. Every limit is the end of one thing and the beginning of another. Explore the frontier with your own efforts and possibilities.
Forget the time
Try not to plan the beginning and end of events. Let them take the time they need. Enjoy the natural passing of time, with its periodic succession of day and night. When you travel, it sometimes seems as though the time passes differently, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.
Walk
Whenever you can, walk. When you walk, you can look at things more closely and carefully. Walking is an action, the speed of which is natural and comfortable. You take one step at a time.
Deviate from the route
Often the most valuable experiences are found on the least-traveled routes. Marked routes are simply those already traveled by other people. Challenge yourself to open a new path. Be daring, discover.
Go outside when it rains
Things are different, and appear different, than when the sun is shining.
Ask questions
Find out about the things you see along the way; how and why they are the way they are. Curiosity keeps us alert and in a state of constant change.
Try new flavors
The food and drink in each place has its own flavors, smells and colors. Sometimes they have been prepared using recipes passed down through generations. Try them. Give them an opportunity to surprise you.
Do not stop
Movement keeps us alive and new experiences nourish us. Move about, do not stop. When you change to someplace different, new possibilities open up.
Stop
Pauses are just as important as movement. Stop and breathe deeply. Look. Listen. Take a break. There are times when there is nothing better than a siesta, contemplation of the landscape or reading a book in the shade of a tree.
Talk with people
There is nothing like conversation for getting to know other people. Talk with the local people. Tell them about where you are from, share your ideas and beliefs. Listen. Challenge your prejudices.
Listen to stories about the place
The present is enriched and better understood by hearing about the past. Listening to stories can also be surprising and fun.
Protect nature
Make sure that your journey through each place leaves no trace for those who come after you. Care for nature. Untouched places are an increasingly scarce treasure.
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Saturday, November 9, 2013
Crunch
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| Jardin de Luxembourg, Paris. October 2010. |
Did they die verse unwritten or
did they refuse to have themselves strait-jacketed into form, into structure,
how much of a leaf do you truly admire outside the canopy of the tree, or do
you find verse in its free fall, its cascade into the heap that gets swept
away, billowing into playful clouds and then melt into dust, until the next
season of appearance, an appointment you are never fully aware of, that chances
itself upon you, like that half glimmering side of the suncatcher that you
happen to pass by, that for a fraction of a moment glints your eye, and you
think what was that sparkle of light, the sun? It was attention that thing we
fall short of, like the beauty we reflect upon in hindsight, like the cool
shade of the canopy of the tree, and never the leaf or its veins in itself, it
is the legion of recollections that flood in, billowing into playful clouds and
then melt into dust.
(Penned Nov 9, 2013)
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Small talk
Bobs in own's keg of brine. Here a regret, there a lost love, a piece
of pride chewed on, unraveling string of childhood self, a life of
kites and bicycles, like mirror shards, a broken top, favourite gum,
page torn off a book, yellowing letters, all pickled bits, cast away
one memory at a time.
A packed room, chink of ice to crystal, only the finest trend in the
luxe will do, all deep words and hollow eyes, darting slow and
cursive, a shadow in the now, yes it gets as interesting, as a fly on
a sugar cube, or an empty subway with its twinkling lights at
midnight.
Oh the allure, swagger, free association, entices as much as an onion
shell, whirling to the breeze. Human pickle, bottled in your skin, you
are stacked on shelves by the dozens.
A relic maybe. Prized? A matter of opinion. Vintage? There're better
specimens in museums of the world.
Friday, April 19, 2013
That travels not
Lovely gift of gleaming green, outside the rain, without water, soft and thriving, jumping hoops, snares and kind words, a little resting, little cajoled, every which way discoursed, very welcome - winsome suggestion, not every arrow, bee, lost horse, heads where pointed. Load the lode, your map a dot. Flight foregone, is loss of journey.
(Penned Fri, Apr 19, 2013)
Friday, September 21, 2012
Circuit Breaker
The circuit
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There are some things among some of us that we have common.
You'd either know what I'm talking about or it may just go wasted. Either which ways, let's begin.
It
takes us time, effort and inclination to explain to people what we do
and why we do what do and how it impacts who and when, somewhere in the
macro scheme of things.
Our parents may not understand
what exactly we do or what keeps us awake in the middle of the night.
Anything that takes more than 10 seconds to explain to the relatives is a
bit of a bother.
Most of us are classic conditioned,
borderline OCD cases, damaged irreparably. Those beyond the border OCD,
wait to welcome us on the other side.
Our (non-air
kissing) social life is confined to commuting hours. We are thankful to
have a social life. Ditto for commuting hours; possibly since it allows
for the former.
Our friends 'on the circuit' speak the same
minimalistic language. Raised eyebrows, knowing smiles, nodding glances,
supportive shoulder pats.
Our friends off the circuit wonder what the constant state of the big fuss is all about and tell us to get a life.
We are terribly guarded, perhaps not so much by baggage or biases but rather out of habit.
A history of political correctness ensures that we can’t really *talk* talk to just about anybody and everybody.
We especially enjoy our silences. When we have them.
Our
personal accomplishments, however mediocre, are milestones and our
world rejoices with “Alleluia!” Our professional accomplishments,
however remarkable, are hygiene and yea, whatever.
We know we'd be most appreciated, at a point in time that we fervently hope ourselves, never arrives that we truly be needed.
We
catch up only over whatever allows for generous doses of caffeine or
alcohol. These are particularly less tedious if we speak the same
language.
Those who nurture us inspite of our scrolls of
damnation can never be venerated enough for their large-heartedness,
patience and compassion.
Our dream break is trotting off
to see the world, getting all scratched and muddy in green forests or
sunning like mudskippers across beaches, preferably over more alcohol.
What we truly need however, is to be heavily sedated and laid to rest with our ears underwater.
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Thursday, September 6, 2012
Friday, August 17, 2012
16-bit Intel 8088 chip (Charles Bukowski, 1985)
with an Apple Macintosh
you can't run Radio Shack programs
in its disc drive.
nor can a Commodore 64
drive read a file
you have created on an
IBM Personal Computer.
both Kaypro and Osborne computers use
the CP/M operating system
but can't read each other's
handwriting
for they format (write
on) discs in different
ways.
the Tandy 2000 runs MS-DOS but
can't use most programs produced for
the IBM Personal Computer
unless certain
bits and bytes are
altered
but the wind still blows over
Savannah
and in the Spring
the turkey buzzard struts and
flounces before his
hens.
you can't run Radio Shack programs
in its disc drive.
nor can a Commodore 64
drive read a file
you have created on an
IBM Personal Computer.
both Kaypro and Osborne computers use
the CP/M operating system
but can't read each other's
handwriting
for they format (write
on) discs in different
ways.
the Tandy 2000 runs MS-DOS but
can't use most programs produced for
the IBM Personal Computer
unless certain
bits and bytes are
altered
but the wind still blows over
Savannah
and in the Spring
the turkey buzzard struts and
flounces before his
hens.
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Meanwhile, elsewhere...
"Gore Vidal
has died: "As societies grow decadent, the language grows decadent,
too. Words are used to disguise, not to illuminate, action: you liberate
a city by destroying it. Words are to confuse, so that at election time
people will solemnly vote against their own interests." At The New York Review of Books, Charles Simic reflects on Aurora. The Atlantic reports on one poet worrying about information overload in 1821. The Poetry Foundation has announced the long list for the Ruth Lilly Fellowships. Suicide Girls interviews Anne Carson. And Gore Vidal has died."
Source: The Boston Review
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Things to worry about
On August 8th of 1933, author F. Scott Fitzgerald wrote the following letter of advice to his 11-year-old daughter, "Scottie," who was away at camp.
La Paix, Rodgers' Forge
Towson, Maryland
August 8, 1933
Dear Pie:
I feel very strongly about you doing duty. Would you give me a little more documentation about your reading in French? I am glad you are happy — but I never believe much in happiness. I never believe in misery either. Those are things you see on the stage or the screen or the printed pages, they never really happen to you in life.
All I believe in in life is the rewards for virtue (according to your talents) and the punishments for not fulfilling your duties, which are doubly costly. If there is such a volume in the camp library, will you ask Mrs. Tyson to let you look up a sonnet of Shakespeare's in which the line occurs "Lillies that fester smell far worse than weeds."
Have had no thoughts today, life seems composed of getting up a Saturday Evening Post story. I think of you, and always pleasantly; but if you call me "Pappy" again I am going to take the White Cat out and beat his bottom hard, six times for every time you are impertinent. Do you react to that?
I will arrange the camp bill.
Halfwit, I will conclude.
Things to worry about:
Worry about courage
Worry about Cleanliness
Worry about efficiency
Worry about horsemanship
Worry about. . .
Things not to worry about:
Don't worry about popular opinion
Don't worry about dolls
Don't worry about the past
Don't worry about the future
Don't worry about growing up
Don't worry about anybody getting ahead of you
Don't worry about triumph
Don't worry about failure unless it comes through your own fault
Don't worry about mosquitoes
Don't worry about flies
Don't worry about insects in general
Don't worry about parents
Don't worry about boys
Don't worry about disappointments
Don't worry about pleasures
Don't worry about satisfactions
Things to think about:
What am I really aiming at?
How good am I really in comparison to my contemporaries in regard to:
(a) Scholarship
(b) Do I really understand about people and am I able to get along with them?
(c) Am I trying to make my body a useful instrument or am I neglecting it?
With dearest love,
Daddy
P.S. My come-back to your calling me Pappy is christening you by the word Egg, which implies that you belong to a very rudimentary state of life and that I could break you up and crack you open at my will and I think it would be a word that would hang on if I ever told it to your contemporaries. "Egg Fitzgerald." How would you like that to go through life with — "Eggie Fitzgerald" or "Bad Egg Fitzgerald" or any form that might occur to fertile minds? Try it once more and I swear to God I will hang it on you and it will be up to you to shake it off. Why borrow trouble?
Love anyhow.
Thursday, July 12, 2012
A ware
There are windows, by which we pass, by chance in passing, a brief moment, lost in the landscape, or in the weather, and the thief of time becomes the knave of hearts, a gentle cloud of forgetfulness, drifting by, whispers sweet nothings, stay with us, everything melts, the lotus eater's clock of Dali, he sees everything, you in that dark, misty corner, at the lost end of the world, in a haze, tilting over your toes, into the grey looming chasm of open arms, is it Samothrace, her whiff of revival, a new waking, a mouse squeak, a third eye, remember, remember, remember what you love.
(Penned Thurs, July 12, 2012)
Thursday, June 28, 2012
La mia prima poesia italiana
Siete i benvenuti a mia casa
C'e' dove,
La tua candela si scalda sempre
il cuore del focolare
La tua candela si scalda sempre
il cuore del focolare
(Penned June 27, 2012)
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Dolce far niente
Conjectures blind, mulling over, Same? Different? Conversational-less
grey-clouded skies, how do we know, a hard crack of jagged light striking, how
do we know, mugs of tea lazily fogging glasses, de-skimming them endlessly, mechanically,
phosphenes drifting like snowflakes, a whirring whip of rolling dice, so there
can be solutions, rain-dripped pages drying, we’re not problems people, uh-huh,
intents bobbing on loaming waves of limbo, perhaps, maybes, maybe nots, two sides of a coin, edge bound, where we meet,
scurrying until we fall off, gets back on, who remains, it takes feet but two,
to keep it spinning, and so live and die, these
crests of our making, undecided, now forgotten tea abandoned, Look! How beautiful
is this rain! So let’s bury them, conjectures blind, Same? Different? In this
muddled, rain-swept earth, until the day, someone finds them and says, Look
what I found! These oddly littered knick-knacks that stood the test of time!
Penned Tues, June 19, 2012
Thursday, June 14, 2012
The Song of Life (Jiddu Krishnamurti)
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I have no name,
I am as the fresh breeze of the mountains.
I have no shelter;
I am as the wandering waters.
I have no sanctuary, like the dark gods;
Nor am I in the shadow of deep temples.
I have no sacred books;
Nor am I well-seasoned in tradition.
I am not in the incense
Mounting on the high altars,
Nor in the pomp of ceremonies.
I am neither in the graven image,
Nor in the rich chant of a melodious voice.
I am not bound by theories,
Nor corrupted by beliefs.
I am not held in the bondage of religions,
Nor in the pious agony of their priests.
I am not entrapped by philosophies,
Nor held in the power of their sects.
I am neither low nor high,
I am the worshipper and the worshipped.
I am free.
My song is the song of the river
Calling for the open seas,
Wandering, wandering,
I am Life.
I have no name,
I am as the fresh breeze of the mountains.
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